Slight happiness

Though almost everything that had happened to me in the past few months are bad, there are, however few things that really lit up my life slightly. Glad that at least some hardwork had actually repaid me back, no matter how small it is.

I always do believe that everyone is equal. Every man has his downfall and glory days. I do believe, and certainly wish for, that this half year of my life is the down part. This period is where nothing goes in the right way. Everything seems to chained. I'm having bad mood for failing some application. Then I expressed my anger towards people, making them upset and all sorts.

But in this part if my life, I tried to turn to a new leaf. Last time, I always believe I'm lucky because I do not need to work hard to achieve things. I could have just do nothing and my parents would just buy me lots of things. That time, everything just come in my way. But recently, the fortune had turn it's back against me. Everything that I wanted, i would work hard for it, but it only paid me little. After lots of despair, I begun to look at life differently. Accepting that people aren't always lucky. This just make me appreciate more and working harder.

No matter what will happen in the near future. I do believe that this period will certainly make me a better person.

Understanding

Recently had a quarrel with a good friend of mine. Probably I refuse to do something that someone else promise him that I would do. Thinking back. I shouldn't be so selfish. No matter how taxing a task maybe, we should help them do it. What are friends for? anyway.

Although, I still believe that my choice of not helping a friend is not wrong. All I wish for is for him to at least make some effort to lessen my burden. That is what I wish. Took some time thinking over this mistake. No matter who's wrong and who's correct, the proper way is to forgive and forget. Let bygones be bygones.

I do hope people would understand me more. Although i do have a lot of bad habits, I still do practice some good habits. After all I did to help my friends, only a handful would understand my true character. Sadly, only girls understands me, they truely know my personality. Guy friends, however, only will picture my bad habits only.

I was quite relieve when somebody actually praise me. I can't believe that she actually know the good side of me. I do like to help people, but somehow these days I can't help on some things. It's because I don't wanna hurt myself too much to lend a helping hand.

So please, next time when you people ask me for a favour, I will be more than glad to help. But please, let me see that you are too, working out at least something to ease my job.

Long time

Lots of stuffs happpened for the past 2 months. Really really not a good period for me. Lots of disappointment. Lots of mistakes. Tension mounting. Uni's starting in a few weeks time. Still undecided. Moody all the time. Always thinking.

Haihz. Recently had a strange feelings towards some girl. I started to doubt myself. Always asking. Aren't I still waiting for that person. My thoughts are messed up recently. Some occasional midnight chats with someone not-so-special. I thought i have no feelings towards her. But some part of her resembles someone that I am still missing.

Strange. A few nights before, we chatted till late night. Well over her time of sleep, I somehow wished that we can talk longer, knowing each other better. Bad part is, wondering whether I should make our relationship a step further.

Strangely, that night, I dreamt about someone that I have been missing alot. It was flashbacks of my sweet and happy moments with her. Holdings hand secretly in the bus and the cuteness of her laughter. But dreams do end. I woke up. Still wanting to flashback more moments together with her.

I shall take a step back. That dream, give me the confidence to continue what I still believe. That someday, destiny would bring us back together. I would be the one for her and vice versa. Ahh, I still hate it when she says someone is cute.